Asrai Devin

Kiss me, and you will see how important I am.” ― Sylvia Plath

Creation, blame, and self-forgivness


My husband and I have an ongoing argument about house cleaning. The whole tale is another post. Anyway, with the tension of his parents impending arrival and my annoyance with having to go outside my regular cleaning schedule of doing as little as possible, we ended up pissed off at each other. I still am a bit.

Love hurts

Love hurts (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

But, after I stewed fora while I came back to bed. And I tried to exercise love and forgiveness. That didn’t work very well. I was angry. I wanted an apology and I deserve one (still forth coming).

I started thinking about the Hendrick’s work. How did I was I to blame for this?

Now, not how was I blame and how should I fix it? In the sense that I needed to clean more or I needed to make him do more shit around the house.

In a “how did I create this through the energy patterns I’ve set up in my life?”

It was a bit of a revelation for me.  Usually I’m blaming myself or blaming the other person for doing something. Something one of us needs to fix to make the pain go away.

Love Hurts

Love Hurts (Photo credit: *Bitch Cakes*)

I could acknowledge that we both coming from a place of fear and pain.

My inner guide is still working on where to go from there. And my ego is still pissed as hell at him. But I did find a small amount of peace. I will write more about what I found in looking at my own patterns.

do you find peace in unusual places?

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